the letter z

Posted in Uncategorized by z on 2009-11-30

The words have not been flowing so easily these days. I have been so exhausted and tired of life, trying to find some little value or escape where I can find it, and mainly succeeding in the later.

I’ve been reminded recently of my own mortality. And in this, I am reminded of the uselessness and worthlessness of my life. I fight against being forgotten so much, but I fear the fight will be all for naught.

So, this is where my life is at the moment, still fighting this endless fight against everything and mainly succeeding at escaping from it — sometimes this frightens me, but it is a tremendous relief.